Obedience for you

This morning I woke in a hotel room in Reno Nevada and I recalled a conversation I had last week with a man I met on a plane who had recently released a Netflix series called Ruth and Boaz. I didn’t know him or of him but we talked for a moment before he left the aircraft and I remember when I said the word, “Obedience” in conversation his eyes lit up and he pointed a finger at me as if a light bulb had went off inside of him – sending a spark into my own heart.

I don’t have a following or a platform to reach millions of people like this man does. All I have is stories; true stories of people who the world will likely never hear about. I’m one of those people. I was found dead at age 17 and brought back to life by God. I never spoke about it to anyone until very recently when I felt compelled to do so; stirred in my heart when I was leading a bible study group of teenagers, (many who had confessed they were wrestling with suicidal thoughts).

I have since that time set at the bedside of a man given 5% chance to live as the nueroscientists deemed healing IMPOSSIBLE. I remembered that my life was once called “impossible” by first responders. I remembered that God answers prayers when humans have no answer that’s good or gives hope. Then just a few years ago my mother was given only 3 months to live (diagnosed with an incurable disease). God laid it on my heart to make prayer candles and go out with my dog where we met strangers, gifted candles and asked people to pray with us. “Where two or more are gathered in my name I’m in their midst,” says scripture. Again, I witnessed a miracle as today she’s still alive and that “3 months” death sentenced was overpowered by the author and finisher of our faith and our stories.

Today I live in a strange place (Los Angeles) with no family or friends around. I felt God had placed me there to find an open door where I’d be able to share my stories of miracles on a big stage. I wanted to give people hope by sharing the truth in what I’ve witnessed in these impossible circumstances. But the producers and script writers I’ve met aren’t interested in stories about God. So, I kept praying and asking, “God why I am here?” And I keep seeing these prayer candles as the Lord shows me so many people in our world who are suffering today.

In October one of the producers who rejected my book gave me an opportunity to earn a little money making a film sizzle for a project she’s working on. I did the video and the creative work then felt God speaking to me that I should use this money to make prayer candles again. It’s hard without my furry friend at my side (my dog was my best friend and prayer warrior who went out into the streets with me before). But I am doing my best to be obedient and share with others what I know. Prayer is powerful and when I’ve joined hands and hearts with others I’ve seen GOD send fire from the heavens to answer those prayers.

So, here I am relaunching this website and passing out candles on airplanes and in various cities. If you found this blog today, you likely received one of these candles. Will you let me do what’s on my heart to do? Will you let me pray with you for whatever needs are weighing heavy upon your shoulders? Will you open your mind to believe that these stories I speak of are true and that if God can answer the cry of my heart (a very imperfect woman), then he wants to be your help also?

Let us pray – I have a form on the website and I look forward to getting your message and lighting a candle with you tonight.

Love, J